ILLICIT

Raw Cravings

I can’t pay attention to the movie, to immerse in Shiloh, and watch her out of the corner of my eye. It’s almost too much, kind of embarrassed at how hard she makes me but there’s no way that I’m going to hold back for much longer.

I couldn’t be sure what she was going to do to me, but I did know that she was playing a dangerous game that could make me lose everything. I watch her cautiously as I try to decide what I’m going to do because it is becoming more and more obvious that I have no idea what to do about this.

Running my fingers through my hair, I just watch her out of the corner of my eye as I see her looking at me for a split second. I don’t know if she has noticed how hard she has made me, not wanting to embarrass myself like that. I just keep my attention straight ahead and there is no way that I’m going to hold back any longer. I couldn’t be sure but the movie ended before I could think about much else.

We head out of there, feeling like I’m being a bit quiet because I’m not a hundred percent certain about what I’m going to say to her. She makes me feel everything, my stomach churns with nerves because I can’t be certain about what is even going to happen next. As we head to the car, I think about what I want to do next but the next thing I know, I’m pressing her right against the car and my lips meet hers before I even realize it is happening.

She grins as I pull back, a smirk on her face, “How about we go to the hotel? I’d like to see what happens between us.”

I should say no because I don’t know what’s going to happen but I find myself nodding. I think that I’m already falling for her and that is scary in itself. Oh fuck me, what am I going to do from here?

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Shiloh::::

I shouldn’t be doing this but I’m more than just a little tempted to have sex with him. He is quite handsome, and he is everything that a girl like me could want. I know that this could turn around and bite me in the butt but I couldn’t be certain about it either. I don’t know what he might do to me but I do know there is no way in hell that I’m going to back down because I know there’s no way that I’m going to be able to back away from him.

I see how he looks at me and I know he wants me just as much as I want him. I just want him in bed, I don’t really have feelings for him. I don’t care that he is kind or that he makes me feel weird things. I just want to mess around with him and then later down the road, break his heart and be done with it. I don’t know what he is thinking about it but I do know there is no way in hell that I’m going to allow it to happen this way. I just hope he knows what he is doing, that is the biggest thing right now.

“Are you sure about this?” Lark asks me as we step into the hotel room, “I don’t want you to regret this at all.”

“I won’t regret this.” I promise him, turning around to raise an eyebrow at him, “I think that YOU might be the one to regret it though so don’t worry about me. Okay?”

I know that I’m playing with fire but I end up cupping his face in my hands and I pull him closer for a deep kiss. His eyes widen with surprise and he stares at me like I just had done something crazy. I know that I might be a bit crazy for kissing him like this but there’s no way that I’m going to hold back any longer. I just want him to be inside of me and I want him to devour me whole. That would be the best thing that could happen between us if I am being honest.

“You’re crazy.” He whispers in a husky voice, “I could do anything to you. I…”

I cup him through his pants and I am pleasantly surprised and intrigued to feel the massive length he is hiding from me. It is almost too big, making me nervously gnaw on my bottom lip as I think precisely what I want to do to him. It’s looking like to me that he hasn’t had sex except a few times and it is kind of intriguing because I don’t know why he wouldn’t be having sex with someone when he looks like this.

I work on the belt of his pants, unbuckling it and letting them drop. I see how he is straining against his boxers, aching to be freed. I pull it down without mercy, letting his cock spring free and my jaw drops and my eyes widen when I see the sheer size of him.

I’m not even sure what I was expecting, seeing how big he really is, but it sure wasn’t this. I very much want to do everything to him, feeling a bit nervous because I would love nothing more than to suck on his cock and do everything to him.